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March 9th, 2004

03:59 pm mmm... the weather has been perfect the last few days... ^.^ i can ride at night, in a t-shirt, and the wind rushing by will be pleasantly cool... if you don't know what that feels like, you have not lived... ooh, i can't wait till i get her tuned, and than get some new tiers... meanwhile, most of my time has been taken up by work of various sorts, feh... and it will only get worse until finals, but than after that... hehe... other than that, i'v been reading Zen and the Art of Mortorcycle Maintenance... which is surprisingly good, i would have finished it in one sitting, if i didn't have so much other things that _must_ be done... *sigh* cassandra's spawn still haven't hatched... Current Mood: pleased Current Music: Sunshine Blind - Cold From Fever (more VtM comp.)

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March 3rd, 2004

11:32 pm - walking in LA, walking in LA-AI! my bike has been touchy lately... on the way back from LA on sunday, the chord connecting my speedometer/odometer with front wheel decided to fall off... found a good way to cheat on milage, yet was rather annoyed at having to guess my speed by the sound of the bike/how fast i was passing cars/tachometer till i got home... and today, i realized the whole front pannel assembly is loose... and so is one of the bolts keeping the frame together (the latter was about to fall out actually)... thats never mind the fact that the tread on my rear wheel is gone altogether, and she is so off tune i can almost feel it... maintenance was supposed to be done at 7000, yet its past 9000 and i am pretty sure will be well over 10000 by the time i actually get to do it sometime around spring break (hopefully)... but thats ok (i think), the tread only really matters in wet conditions and kawasakis are not exactly a fragile breed... hm, i have realized the internet is like crack... it consumes my time and gives nothing in return... i shall stop this in slow incrimental steps.... first incremental step is: less than 30 min/day including "useful internet".... in other news, my friend's brother (whom i also knew) killed someone a couple days ago and is being held at a quorter million dollars bail... Current Mood: blah Current Music: none

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January 16th, 2004

05:43 am - an update hm... haven't posted in a while have i... well, as you can tell by te time, its a p-chem day... er, night... er, morning... i am half asleep and eating ramen, listening to massive attack... tommorow is looms ahead... its going to be another bright busy day... and than maybe i'll entertain myself with something or other... hm, what things of interest happened since my last post you say?... quite a few... though nothing really major... at least nothing major enough to demand notice... besides, i am just too lazy to write up a report, and really, whats the point?... so i'll just continue in my usual manner, ignoring the slight absence... last night i saw a dream of flying whales... they were gigantic, and flew over the ocean near the horizon... more like jumped, ignoring all laws of physics... was very starteling because i didn't realise it was a dream until the third wale jumped up and than sunk into the sea.... so for around five minutes i was trying to figure out what exactly is hapening... conjuring up quite amusing explanations, like "it only looks like its the size of at least a dozen aircraft carriers and is flying at an altitude of 15000 ft because of a strange optical elusion"... or "look its falpping its flippers, so thats how it stays up"... and "i remember now, whales do it all the time, no thats dolphins, or do whales jump as well?"... i gave up as soon as a very mystical lookin whyrm jetted out of the ocean and stood on its tail, most of its body not visible because it reached above the clouds... and than lots of other things happened, though they wren't as picturesque and impressive... i also found out that in japan more suicides occur on JR lines than private raleways, because the JR lines charge less for the inconvinience coased by the jumpee... *sigh* sunrise going to rise soon... time to face yet another day... Current Mood: calm Current Music: Massive Attack - Antistar (from 100th window)

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December 9th, 2003

06:44 pm just because i haven't put one of these in in a while, and i actually found it entertaining to take... You are a Theory Slut. The true elite of the postmodernists, you collect avant-garde Indonesian hiphop compilations and eat journal articles for breakfast. You positively live for theory. It really doesn't matter what kind, as long as the words are big and the paragraph breaks few and far between. What kind of postmodernist are you!? brought to you by Quizilla Current Mood: amused Current Music: Miyavi - Girls Be Ambitious

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05:07 pm ...and so saying i put on my favorite black sweater, and made some food... and prepared for my final, and aced it in the morning... and than went and fixed my darling's steering, and decided that the brakes felt weird because of worn tires which will be changed shortly... I than figured out how to fix the cowling, got back home, took a shower, and so once again demonstrated that all things in life are temporary... heh... told ya it would go away... if you want something just reach out and take it... it will never come to you on its own, but can be made to do so easy enough... the world is a cold and cruel place, but will bend into any shape you damn well please under a strong-enough will... or it has in my experience anyway... Current Mood: pleased Current Music: The 69 Eyes - Crashing High

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December 8th, 2003

06:57 pm i feel like shit... my bike's upper cowling is broken, and steering doesn't feel right... neither do the brakes for the matter... this whole studying thing isn't quite working... there's a final in the morning, and i am hungry and cold and have no energy for anything... and i want a shower or a ride or both... but there is no time, and the ground is covered with wet leaves and junk... feh... well, it will all go away soon... Current Mood: discontent Current Music: Miyavi - Yamete Shite Sawaranai

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December 6th, 2003

04:28 am Напудрив ноздри кокаином, Я выхожу на променад, И звезды светят мне красиво, И симпатичен ад. so that was pretty much my evening... apolagies to those who don't read Russian, i just can't bring myself to butcher this in translation... Current Mood: relaxed Current Music: a quiet, gentle, and ever so slightly sorrowful silence

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November 23rd, 2003

03:58 am - Нас найдут по ярым крикам much fun has been had with a frying pan this evening... in fact, i never thought these items could be quite that much fun... you know how in movies and animes and such, people always set the kitchen on fire from a blaze in a cooking utensil and hilarity inevitably ensues... turns out this feat can be easily performed in real life!... all one has to do is neglect to dry off one's frying pan, pour some oil on it and set it on the stove... shortly, thick smoke will build up under the lid, and once the lid is lifted..... in my case, i though it might be best to do this outside, to avoid the smoke from filling the kitchen of course... imagine my surprise when instead of relatively harmless smoke a fireball around of 4 ft in height dashed into the night sky... i was momentarily confused, which is not surprising considering i was suddenly stuck outside with a portable fireplace in one hand (which was now burning in a steady 1.5 ft blaze) and a lid in the other... more ever i had to keep the hand with the pan outstretched as far as possible for i really didn't want the fire to get to my hair... a part of my sweater's sleeve was already happily burning you see... waving the pan about didn't seem to intimidate the flame either, instead it caused bits of oil to fly out and start little satellite fires all around me... i was in part very amused by my predicament, and in part frantically running through the possible methods of extinguishing fires... the handle was being wormed by the blaze alarmingly quickly and it was my favorite (and only) frying pan, sweater and arm we are talking about here... i managed to put out the fire on my sleeve with my other hand (i can't recall how i got around the hand being taken up by lid problem, probably put it down in a moment of unparalleled insight) but i didn't dare to use that method on the pan itself... neither did i feel like stomping on it, and hence risking my favorite slippers... nor did i have any water... nor sand... nor could i go inside to get either of these items... nor could i realize that i can free myself from the pan by putting it down, like i did with the lid..... luckily at this point one of my housemates came out and offered to get some baking soda, i gladly accepted and all was solved... except that it took the next hour or so to clean the damned thing from burnt soda... >.< after this, i made sure to thoroughly dry the pan, and went back to making dinner... it came out rather tasty too... Current Mood: artistic Current Music: Grazhdanskaya Oborona - Suicid

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November 12th, 2003

06:05 am - morning sweetheart hm, its still just 6 oclock, and i have finished all m p-chem homework already... i think they are going soft on us... >.< well, at least i can write an entery... what else is here to do anyway at 6 oclock in the morning... overall though my recent days have been rather relaxed... even while "scrambling" to get a presentation for japanese a homework for p-chem and studying for neurobio done all in one day, i managed to find some time to open a bottle of wine and enjoy it with some cherry chocolates... as well as stop by at a friend's place, and eat two decent meals, and sleep in in the morning... and on the weekend i ate shrooms, and saw the moon get slaughtered by the sunrise as i lay in my bed... and sodium borate makes the most awesome patterns when you try to dissolve it by means of magnetic stirrer in a 2 l graduated cylinder... it lazily swirls up on the outside, and quickly spirals down the center making a rather cool snowstorm effect... these past few days have really been in the style of that old joke... "paren' prihodit k doktoru, i tot ka polozheno sprashevaet, kurite? net, pyote? net, a devushki? tozhe net? a kakzhe vi" rsslablyaetes'? -a ya ne naprigayus'..." myeah... i really don't have that much to say right now... and i am waay too sleepy and content to try... Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: The Cardigans - Erase and Rewind

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November 6th, 2003

12:13 am - more cute junk... How to gracefuly refuse a scene you ask? well babies, don't you panic... Here are some simple and very socially graceful ways to do just that: I can't, I have to go home and alphabetize my lubes. There's only one thing a sadist like me can say to that offer. NO. My inner dominant is spanking my inner child. I'll get back to you when they're done. I'm saving myself for Sean Connery. And my personal favorite: I'm in a consensual scene deprivation scene, hope you understand. Have fun kids, and remember SSC! ~.^ Current Mood: mischievous Current Music: Voltaire - Dead Girls

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November 5th, 2003

05:25 pm - hehe... me just couldn't resist... ^.^; -Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're the kind of chick that can hang out with your boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't care about presents or about going to fancy placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy being around your boyfriend. What Kind of Girlfriend Are You? brought to you by Quizilla

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04:55 pm - What a night, what a night... feh... me spent the night doing p-chem homework and listening to music...which turned out to be a much more entertaining activity than i expected... i discovered the wonders of the Sneaky Bat Machine recently... quite a revalation... i always assumed that perky goths just dressed like goths, and hung around goths, and otherwise had nothing else to do with the scene or the aesthetic... i always thought that perky and goth is an oxymoron, and a stupid idea... oh how wrong i was... (well, not really, the idea of a "perkygoth" was there all along i guess, just never precipitated... probably because, as usual, i skeptically assumed that there isn't anything to them and moved on...) Sneaky Bat Machine is both perky, and goth, and very very good... cute and weird and strange and cute... really worth a listen... mmmm, sneaky... the name fits them very well too, that's exactly what a sneaky bat machine would sound like if such a thing existed and liked to sing songs... i also listened to a bunch of cabaret voltaire, and tom waits, and Gary Numan, and The Mission UK... which is very similar to the 69 eyes btw... 69 eyes being a bit faster and more guitary/metally, while the mission more melodic and melancholic, but only slightly more so... dilute 69 eyes with xymox just slightly, like 8 eyes to 2 xymoxes, and you get something closely resembeling the mission... (but don't forget to bleach out pretty much all of eye's metalish undertones, replace with more rock and roll and classic goth guitar) i always suspected that 69 eyes continued someone else's sound, their music is just such a natural a progression from classic goth for someone to first make that step this late in history... (they are a new band comparatively) and of course, the highlight was Dresden Dolls... this is probably old news to those who pay attention to the boston dark scene, but they are amazing... a young band, heading in such a great and strangely unexplored direction, yet not straying too far from the classic ideals of goth i enjoy so much... heavenly... hope they spread their wings and really fly... this could be something great... (hope it won't be another switchblade symphony >.<) who are nice, i admit... i listened to their songs quite a number of times, but they just don't cut it to be put on the same level as Seauxie, Bauhaus, Gary Numan, David Bowie, or DinJ for the matter, or the Mission... you know what i mean?... there's just something that they lack, not really sure what... too stagnant, too monotonous, wishy washy?... they sound kinda like a highschool talent show band next to these guys IMHO... they had a couple of good ideas, but stayed at that... listen to 15 of their songs and you'v heard them all... (unless i am _really_ missing something) these two on the other hand are much more promising... lets see if they can realize themselves... only one album, it can either be their peak, or the first step to the top of the (goth) world... *smile* good luck kids... (and i really hope she doesn't go for many extremely melodic songs, its really not very flattering to her voice, stick to the "punk" cabaret that you claim to be) oh, oh, i almost forgot... they can acutally perform live... ^.^ sadly, this is becoming a lost art these days... *was rased on DDT, and Nautilus, and Kino, and Mashina Vremeni, and Vi"sotski who all sound as good live as in the studio... is spoiled that way, and doesn't want to do much about it* and meanwhile my bike's chain is now oiled, and the homework is done, and there is rest and food and sleep to be had... me will be off... Current Mood: good Current Music: The Mission UK - (Salad Daze) - Belief

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October 26th, 2003

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October 22nd, 2003

09:56 pm - i wonder if perpetual hunger is the cause of such thoughts i am tiered... two midterms and an in-class essay (in japanese no less) can really drain one of their juices... and maybe even organs... am now floating in an obscene amount of melancholy, mostly entertained by the spider whom i mention before... it still lives in my room it seems... though, as one person pointed out, it can not be hugged, one can play with it in other ways... if bothered enough, it razes its paws in a threatening manner and sometimes even opens its jaws... after which it proceeds to retreat backwards, it being quite clear that a fight will not end in its favor... if chased enough it gives up, and with a hopeful expression scrapes at my fingernail... than realizing that it is still as hard, inedible and foreboding as the last time it tried to examine it, the spider continues to withdraw... wonder what human society and morals would be like if humans were obligatory carnivores... even more interesting, if they had to eat their food while its still alive... cooking would be a whole lot easier... and killing would be viewed in a whole different light probably... i mean, you can't really scoff at such things as blood, or final screams of an animal struggling for existence if you kill several every day... fast food would involve grabbing a couple fist-sized living creatures, restrained with recyclable plastic nets probably, and as they screamed punching a hole in their neatly shaved scull with one's fangs and sucking out the juices while continuing to chat with your friends... meanwhile the things would breathe out their last breaths, and the drops of blood that leaked out from the wound would be neatly soaked up by the packaging designed for exactly that purpose... than once they were empty, or half empty if you didn't feel hungry that day, you would again collect the limp lifeless bodies into the McSlaughter bag (a very appealing name IMHO to one who needs its food to be alive in order to be edible... advertising how very fresh and easy to use their food is...) and someone would remark on how these creatures are so much worse than homegrown... "yes, they are barely alive" you'd agree "mine didn't even struggle for 10 sec"... and it would be decided to go someplace else next time... Pray in the Box maybe... they offered theirs in an unbound state (free within the confines of their paper box), so you can feel them writhe as you impale them on your chelicerae... and the mess stays inside, so you never have to worry about those random fountains of blood that occur when you happen to hit an artery during your initial bite... interesting vision... i think... Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: Current 93 - a gothic love song

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October 18th, 2003

04:00 am - 666 >:[ i have now officially ridden 6666.6 miles on my bike... go me... i think i will celebrate by eating something, since i haven't eaten anything since breakfast, and i don't think the calories in vodka and whiskey i'v consumed over the course of the last several hours add up to nearly enough... Current Mood: indifferent Current Music: Purr Machine - Send me an Angel

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October 17th, 2003

06:40 pm - so there you go... *sigh* Its friday already, it feels like the week just started yesterday. Just go home from the store, am really tiered and empty. If someone buried me right now i'd, probably just fall asleep and try not to wake up kind of state. There is a bunch of people in front of it demanding that i don't buy stuff because they don't get paid enough. They confused me for a second the first time i saw them, but i decided to ignore them in the end. Sure the system is messed up, but if they want to fight it i am not going to do it for them, or finance their efforts for the matter. And who says that they do, all they want is money for _themselves_ its not like they are struggling for the right of workers everywhere or anything nearly as pure as that. And wanting to get more stuff for doing less is exactly what the system is based on i.e. greed, selfishness, sloth etc. . I mean, what kind of morons would support capitalism if in the depths of their heart somewhere they weren't hoping to become one of the .001% elite which owns 80% of the wealth. They'd do the same if they were on top, the fuckers. I have no pity for murderers who are about to be slaughtered. When times are good, they tell me to go to hell with my leftist propaganda while frantically scraping at lottery tickets for that chance to fuck the world over, and now that they aren't doing so well, they call out to my decency to save them. And why should i? What did they do to deserve it? Sat in front of a store with a bunch of signs that took ~20 min to make? I work in the lab till 9pm on weekends and don't get paid a cent, and never complain. I know the only way to actually be paid more is produce something worth paying for. While they sit in front of a store, chat amongst themselves and wave at passing cars and expect a raze. So after running through these and bunch of other points i decided to just buy the food ignoring them completely, and pass on to them a little it of desperation i feel about this world. (i was also hungry, and didn't feel like taking extra time riding to a worse store) But that was yesterday, today the store had a sign up saying that they are hiring at 17$ an hour. And a cute gothy looking girl apparently took them up on the offer, and the didn't even make her wear the stupid uniform. So i gave her a flyer for the gothy music night thingy (which is on the 28th at Bar Absinthe, 500 Anacapa Ave. Santa Barbara, with two dance rooms and full bar (21+ only sadly)) and rode home in the grayish fog that was lazily swirling about waiting for the sunset. *sigh, listens to music for a bit* But the real reason for the melancholy is probably the fact that i might have very well been very much dead half way through today. I guess riding is always dangerous, but there are some moments... I was riding down this nice s-shaped piece of road heading toward school, going about 60. (the limit was 35, and for a reason it seems) It was a 5 lane road, the kind with 2 lanes both ways, and one in the middle, with a very strong "s" in it. The road gently curving left (to about 90 degrees from original) and than right till it was heading forward again. There was about 6 meter tall earth embankment type thing on the right of the road following it closely along the "s", and i was in the right lane. When i came out of the turn, there was some fucker in an SUV *shivers after typing the word, sips from his cup* who was veeery slowly rolling across the road from left to right (he was making a left turn apparently), and gently creeping into the side road. He was doing this, me thinks, so as not to damage his precious fucking vehicle (all of this should be read in sedate monotone btw.) over the slight bump that he needed to cross to get into that road. But i didn't see that until i looked over my shoulder. What i did see coming out of that turn, at a decent speed of 60 mind you, was this big wall type thing which would be square in the center of my path by the time i got there (about ~1.5 from the time i saw him from behind the embankment). And no, i do not exaggerate the 1.5 seconds in the least (it might have been less for all i know), as i said, if this would have happened some 5 months ago even, there is a good chance i'd be dead. I am about to say decide, but there was little decision about it, much more of a reflex, not much deliberation one can do in the .5 sec before its too late to do anything at all. I applied brakes, and moved into the left lane. And than realized i am very lucky to be alive and not even disfigured, for my mirror passed about 3 inches from him (putting my right hand at about 6 inches from doom, and my head at about 19). Not at all a pleasant prospect considering i was still going about 50 at that critical moment, and there was no way in hell i could slowed beyond 45. In fact my tiers screeched along the road in the process, just a slight ways away from a skid, and if it weren't for me (in anticipation of something like this eventually happening) practicing not overbraking the rear and underbraking the front (like i did my first n months of riding) i would have skid, or alternatively not dropped enough speed. The image of what smashing into that thing at 90 degrees and 60 miles per hour would look like, kept reappearing in y stream of consciousness for the rest of that day. Its still with me as i write this in fact. After all, it is neat to think of what a soft container of blood and organs hitting essentially a solid wall going at such speed would look like. *runs over it in his head again, shivers, takes another sip* So yeah, though it might sound fake or clichй or whatever, but made me really appreciate the rest of the day. I walked around in a pleasant warm glow, feeling glad to be alive, and thinking how great breathing feels, and how wonderful it is to digest one's breakfast, and even savoring the warmth generated by the combination of sun and my mostly black outfit. I guess this wasn't nearly as exciting as the half crazed laughter i felt compelled to exhale for about a minute, and almost pure adrenalin in my veins after the last time this nearly-got-killed thing happened but i enjoyed this second experience as well. (strangely made me glad there are people whose job it is to keep me under the speed limit, and it also seemed strangely irrational to hate them for it) I also went to the "Japanese Student Association" a couple of days ago, and was quite entertained. The highlight were these two amusing japanese (college, in this case; sorry leon) girls who kept trying to coerce everyone into playing silly japanese drinking games, with lots of shouting and general merriment, while a very serious looking president (think a typical class president in anime) was futilely trying to steer the whole thing toward more educational pursuits (ones that would actually teach stuff about japanese culture and language to those present). In the end he lost, and was forced to scream the beginning lines of "lets play the cow-tongue game! YAAAY! starting with the president! YAAAAAY!" while waving his hand in the air with thumbs-up gestures to exclamate the yaays. He did this in a reluctant i-am-too-cool-and-serious to play this stupid game manner at first, but was forced to repeat with more enthusiasm for the cow-tongue game. He never did relinquish all of his resignation, but that was part of the charm of the moment. ^.^ I also managed to track down Head Space, which apparently is the underground den of perversion here on campus. Despite going to this school for two years, i only heard of it a couple of weeks ago, and just today managed to track down where and how they met. So take that anna, we will top your lesbians yet. =P (erm, top as in excel, better, not the other kind of top... though that might be fun too... ^.^) Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: Machine in the Garden - Dreams of the Absent

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October 8th, 2003

10:29 pm - Fuck >. could you imagine this... i fucking did stupid fucking p-chem problems for fucking 14 hours, and finished half... by the end of that (around 3 am) i was willing to fail that class rather than stare at the mathematica code for another 10 min... >.< fuck, that was painful... and you know what, apparently half the people in that class were in exactly the same position... fucking benedict-web-rubin equations, FindRoot[]s, and Alt-5 comments... >.< who the fuck though it would be a good idea to assign such junk, in such amounts... i can't even say these problems were all that interesting, just very,very time consuming... oh, there were fucking 6 of them all together... could you imagine solving the same problem for 4 hours.... well, i guess if you are a physics major you can, but you masochistic bitches are an exception... *sigh* maybe i should write about something more relevant to someone who might be listening... such things are kind of in a "you had to feel it for yourself" category... but than most of my life is either that, or my interpretations of what i experiense... and the second is not very likely to be understood without significant work on my part, and i am lazy... i guess, i'd much rather have you see these events in as close an approximation as i can get them to be, and derive your own interpretations... that way we both get to have more fun and less tedium... i started reading the story of O... very cliche (or should i say classic??) but entirely adorable, and 60% extraordinarily sexy (by time spent reading)... most definitely worth the time it takes to read, though the "french sentences" can be bothersome at times... whats up with these educated college students anyhoo... me is forced to read the thing in web format because the 3 library copies are in french... *sigh* life is painful... but i guess thats the whole point... at least i have my food stuffs, and entertaining noises... Current Mood: drained Current Music: Ohgr - Solow

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October 2nd, 2003

07:56 pm - dinner-time musings hm.. maybe me should write something, otherwise it seems as if nothing at all happened since the last entry on whatever, and quite opposite is true... maybe not entirely opposite, but definitely not anything like the original over exagerated assumption... me has finally gotten a book on Arachnids, something i wanted to do for a while, but never quite had the right mindset for it... (such books being quite intellectually straining to read at times) in fact, me has stayed more in the productive "science" mindset in the last couple of weeks than almost ever... been quite steadily working on extracting the protein from the byssus... even now the sample i'v spent most of today preparing is being digested (by pepsin in 5% AcOH solution at 4.4 degrees if you care) in the coldroom... though i'v always found magnetic stirrers rather neat, the ones they use for ependorfer tubes get bonus points... instead of just spinning wildly, like most such devices do, this specimen jumps up and down in the tube due to lack of space... (but i guess you have to experience it for yourself in order to understand how entertaining they truly are after spending a number of hours working on some procedure which refuses to work) i was almost tempted to sit there and watch for half an hour or so, but it was cold, and i was very tiered and hungry... (which i no longer am, cos i made food! ^^, if anyone cares that is) had been stopped by a cop for speeding yesturday... dunno why people complain so much about them at all... same as all my other experiences, they were quite reasonble... he only took up 10 min of my day, and wrote up a ticket for 85 in 65 zone... which is nice considering he clocked me at 95, and i was going 110 before i slowed down to enter the univercity... i wasn't even late for my japanese class ^^... watched some animes at the anime club on tue... one of which being gravitation... was thinking of attending the place regularly even, but instead downloaded and watched the rest of gravitation yesturday... was entertained, though now i see why so many people find furries disturbing... there in fact IS something very wrong with a grown man dressed in a purple rabbit suit with large paws... >.< though i can't quite place my finger on what it might be... after all, i would not be much disturbed if that same person was put through a grinder of some sort in all its graphic glory... maybe its because i find the desire to be dressed like a huge purple rabbit more unnatural, than the fact that humans are made up of muscle, tendon, bone, cartilage, adipose tissue, skin and various internal fluids all of which are less rigid than the metal blades of the grinder and will hence be easily homogenized by it... and than again, that might not be the reason at all... after-all, why does unnatural equal more distubing... do we find a tree, less disturbing than a wooden spoon, which in turn we find less disturbing than a metal spoon, which in turn is less disturbing than a plastic one... after-all, isn't our whole existence very, very unnatural... i mean, whats more natural, dying or sending an IM?... so yeah, i dunno where this irrational dislike of men in bunny suits comes from... well than, dinner is almost done, time to continue doing whatever it is i have to do next... Current Mood: content Current Music: a calm warm silence...

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